I'm sensing my old fitness again.. I can smell it.. Abit more and I'll return to normal and then I can, no not relax, I will continue pushing myself.. But my heart and lungs are sure taking a beating. I hope I don't collapse anytime soon..

Pfft.. I'm bored so I shall name my top 10 favourite players of all time.. and the top 10 favourite games I've played and YOU should play too..

10. Carlos Tevez
9. Johann Cruyff
8. Kaka
7. Leonardo
6. Tony Yeboah
5. Eric Cantona
4. Matt Le Tessier
3. Thierry Henry
2. Wayne Rooney
1. Ryan Giggs
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10. Call Of Duty 2: Big Red One
9. Final Fantasy VII
8. Hitman: Contracts
7. Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory
6. SOCOM III: US NAVY SEALS
5. Medieval 1 and 2
4. Metal Gear Solid
3. Gran Turismo 4
2. Hitman: Blood Money
1. Metal Gear Solid 3
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In the meantime.. tomorrow is OB training.. Yahoo, Finally..

I need to conduct at least 2 Mentos and Coke tests b4 showing it to everyone!

I'm obssessed with astrophysics.. face it, i'll never understand the equations explaining black holes but I love em all the same..

Mentos + coke = great fun. I need to do it again.

I just lost my abililty to play the guitar. For real. I have no idea why and I intend to find out.

I tried playing a few Arctic Monkeys songs which I play, or rather, USED to play very well and now I just can't. Even when i tried playing dammit it didnt come out right. Its like I couldnt even pick the guitar or get my fingering right. How does THAT happen???? I find it quite impossible.


Anyway, I so hate the holidays. Nothing to do. Only schoolwork. Everyone else is enjoying themselves. There's nowhere to go, no idea who to go where with, have no money to spend anywhere. As in really no money. Not like you all who say you're broke. I still have no MP3 yet. I can't play the guitar anymore. =@ My soccer buds are all at school. I badly need some street soccer and pool soon!!

arrghh!! i freakin hate dog shit... i so very nearly got my new running shoes dirty.. i was running and i don't usually look down while running but luckily enough i spotted a pile of crap which i sidestepped and nearly stepped on ANOTHER pile.. this is why i hate dogs, or rather their irresponsible and uncultured owners letting them go wherever they need to GO.. damn them.. i'll never run in peace outside of stadium tracks ever again.. sheesh..

went "shopping" just now.. though i wouldnt consider it shopping since we only went to queensway and mustafa and bought some neccessary items from ikea - a new tv rack for nenek, some shelves, candles, and a mini-table for nenek also.. did grocery shopping mainly.. my hands hurt now.. i carried so many sacks of rice + all that ikea stuff..

and then went to PP and ate at Kartini.. bleagh.. i hate that stupid restaurant.. overpriced crap with teeny-weeny servings.. i only ate 3 small pieces of sotong and 1 piece of daging.. pfft.. I'd take old chang kee or even cup noodles anytime to that restaurant..

as for me, i bought 1 miserable tshirt which is fine and... i wanted to buy a Kaka Tshirt but there wasnt any for my size.. boohoo..
i finally bought new running shoes!! Its an Asics shoe! its red again just like my last shoe, only red is primary colour not secondary.. i shall try it out straight away tomorrow... so sad to have to depart with my ClubRunner.. used it for 2 years..

next thing to buy --> M16 from Carrefour.. yes childish I know but its a 1:1 model so its not that bad..

Well its time to celebrate, though I'm not actually doing any celebrating. I'll be spending my time counting the days till school reopens, and shall pass my time going for my runs, doing my exercises, completing my FON journal, my CNP project, PAS project and sleeping..
So sad... I hate holidays.. I only need the weekend to rest really..

1 more day.. Just one.. And its time to get my WELL DESERVED rest.. I have never worked this hard in all my life.. From the ulcers to the babies to the elderly. I have seen enough for now. Not that I'm grossed out or anything just tired. 2 weeks of attachment is enough for now. Nursing IS NOT easy but I will manage just fine, I feel. However its kinda sad to end attachment since everyone we have met, from the Nursing Directors, to the ANs, to Physiotherapists, have been extremely nice, helpful and hospitable to us. Must thank everyone who was in-charge of us.

So thanks to: Mdm Ho Wee Ling ( AsstND, Bright Vision )
Sister Magesh, Ma Khin, Sarah and the others ( Bright Vision )
Physios, Romell - hope i spelt it right- and Stella ( United MediCare )
SSN Santhi and the nurses from the various rooms ( Toa Payoh Polyclinic )

My 1st attachment has gone quite well I must say. I have seen everything I need to see except for Woman's Screening and Pap Smear of course which I'm not allowed to view.. No matter though.. Can't wait for school to start!!! Don't know why lah but just like it so much.. And can't wait to 10th July either.. Getting my new MP3 woohoo.. Not those expensive ones like you rich kids have but a Zen Neeon 1GB.. (=
well I've got a presentation to do now on Immunization. Better impress the Sister tomorrow!

so how you like my new layout?


anyway... today was another boring day at the polyclinic.. maybe this is why no guys work here... i was the only male staff.. =) got to see more babies today.. and foot screening.. but slept n slacked alot too.. will die man 3 more days.. tomorrow got Gallery Of Memories which is in freakin Bukit Batok.. so bloody far away..

so today was at Toa Payoh Polyclinic.. which was ok but damn boring.. got to weigh a few babies, take some temperature, did some dressings and stoned.. haiz.. 4 more days..

I can't wait for the rest of the Common Test results to come out.. So far I have seen my FON and MIC results.. I got 27/40 for FON, which is stupid although it is the 10th highest score in the level.. It still sucks.. I did okay for MIC considering I've never opened a Bio Textbook in my entire life.. got 40/50..

and I can't wait for school to reopen.. I love school so much.. haha..

well gonna watch Lord Of The Rings now on Channel5..

yippeee.. 1st attachment over.. next is hpb.. i'm super tired.. did so many dressings today.. but it was so much fun.. but the working environment is still not my type.. the humidity being the least of my issues.. i shall only work in acute hospitals.... total
primary healthcare is still beyond me... =)

well today was my first posting to Bright Vision Hospital in Hougang of all places... it was quite a good experience.. the staff were very friendly and we were welcomed personally by the Assistant Director of Nursing.. She was very good although abit kecoh lah but whatever.. I got posted to Compassion ward and observed the Sub-Acute Area.. it was quite cool.. the Sister and Nurse i was assigned to were very nice and helpful and so were the other nurses... got to do quite a few stuff, basics though.. feed, move here, clean there..

saw alot of Um... STUFF.. but i wont disclose anything.. so only shared with Zuli and Fizah, who ad they're own stories.. laugh alot lah.. they were in Nursing Home and Chronic Care Ward respectively... REspect then Hope.. i was in compassion as you know...

but slack alot also.. i just walked around pretending to find work.. then when i got real bored i just go sit in toilet.. since its a vegetarian only hospital the food wasnt all that great but it was alrite.. i can't live without meat though.. need to support my "frame".... had to rush to find a MaCs for a couple of MacChickens... and now I'm freaking tired lah... will need to get used to the pace of nursing soon... the nurse i got her name is something.. again, i wont disclose anything here ah.. she walk everwhere at a seemingly random pace and interval but apparently she had everything coordinated, which was cool and all.. but thank God this is only an overview of attachment... i dont think i could work in a community hospital, sad to say.. so as much as i want to go back tomorrow to have more fun i also want it to end quickly... =)

8-4.. tml 8 - 1030- play game/nursing activities.. 1030 snack break. 1045.. activities 1200.. cabut early for lunch.. 1310-1315.. come back late for next round of work.. 1455.. go for tea break and debrief.. also cabut early...........

woohoo.. tomorrow is CA at Bright Vision and I'm feeling stupid. Up to now Stef and Winnie tell me I'll be alone on the first day when it turns out Zuli and Fizah will be there too.. lol.. and here i was worrying about first day of attachment alone.. very dumb.. haha..

oww my damn back.. i've hurt it twice in 2 weeks.. damn DIY.. i'm gonna be on ice for the next 10 hours at least... hopefull heal in time for tml.. wanna go visit Rudy in hospital.. so sad what happened to him.. hope he gets well quickly..

and Abu Musab Al-Zarqawi is dead.. comfirmed.. Allhamdulillah.. thats one less major terrorist... He's an embarrassment to Islam he is..

well need to get more rest, then world cup, then rest again... owwwwwwwww

now i really think i'm gonna fail FON, for real!

i feel damn retarded right now.. couldnt even freaking move the dummy properly into a bloody lateral position.. something so simple and i screwd it up big time... thank GOD i did well for my handwashing and pulse..
and i also feel so guilty and all. If i'm not wrong, Rudy took my pulse at the ulna and not the radius but i wasnt so sure. and guess what. he fell off some corridor, according to Zuli - i still can't picture how that happened - and we're gonna go visit him tml at NUH after captains ball which i dont want to go to......... the 2 cca points for players is a bribe..... damn.. if it was soccer or cross country or even BBall i'd be more willing.. luckily i'm only a reserve.. lets hope it stays that way..

and tml is FON the must-pass test... i shall use my lucky charm to pass it..

Here it is," I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail"
thats my lucky charm,.. yay.

and guess what.. i only managed to sound one idiot today in the library.. as expected he was staring like nobody's business.... i asked him whether he wanted something from me and he actually blushed, - BLUSHED for the love of God -, and turned back to his laptop..
people say male nurses are gay.. if you asked me, that boy was the gay one..

*Goes Off Chanting* GAY BOY, GAAAAY BOOOOYYYY

I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail
I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail
I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail
I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail
I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail
I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail I'm gonna fail

so glad theres only 2 more days of tests left.. but 2 days is the worst.. have NSL prac.. which i could potentially screw up.. PAS test which just stinks.. and FON, the one module i always say i will fail but am not allowed to fail.. fail this and spend another year as a year 1.. aiyoyo..

but i'm only excited cause get to wear uniform tml.. and i'll know i'll generate ALOT of attention.. from bloody arsefaces who have never seen nurses b4, much less male nurses.. i wouldnt mind so much if you stared at us in uniform cause you didnt know there were nurses in NP since it is only 1.5 yrs old? but they all give that obvious "What planet did they come from?" look.. i actually congratulated joseph after he caught a girl staring at him and said, quote " Yes, I'm a Male Nurse" in the most sarcastic tone he could pull off.. damn that was cool stuff.. but i wasnt in uniform then, well tml is my turn to wear it... i'll purposely go around and find fault with anybody who gives me more than just a glance...

here's to many As...... and a successful 1st CA...

well today is a relaxing day... went to marine parade library with joseph, rachel and zuli.. i seriously thought we would end up slacking instead of studying, but indeed we studied.. studies like mad.. studied MIC.. i got 2 lectures encoded and stored *chey*.. shall retrieve it tml afternoon.. i hope got ask alot of questions on bacteria.. i do so love the little bastards.. hahah..

whah i ate alot today... can die.. and i'm still hungry... went to eat at the food centre near parkway.. ate nasi goreng.. then i was still hungry.. stomach rumbling like crazy.. went to MacD.. then buy bubble tea... rachel and zuli were amazed i could still eat.. haha.. what they didnt know is i still felt hungry and went to bedok MacD and bought a big mac.. haha.. and guess what.. after the Big Mac, I went ......... home.. not hungry anymore.. thank god.. lucky i use my old EZlink to pay.. if not sure bankrupt... and now i'm hungry again.. more nasi goreng at home.. with soup and hotdog somemore.. i gonna eat now.. buay..

Good Luck to whoever is taking NSL practicals tomorrow. Bet y'all pass straight away when the lecturers see you in uniform.. lol
And Happy 17th Birthday to Khai...

Your Kissing Purity Score: 100% Pure You've hardly ever been kissed But the kisses you've given are very missed Kissing Purity Test What Your Face Says

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wow today i'm super tired... and i stink of cheap cigarette smoke.. bloody bastards somking in the toilet.. wanna kill yourself go ahead, i dont wanna Die too.. i made a show of coughing and spitting phlegm too make my point indirectly but of course they werent to smart to understand..

anyway today i had my AAP test which i got 16/20.. kinda lame actually.. got careless mistake.. but its quite good considering the number of people who failed..

and my freakin stitch won't go away.. all bacause I've been laughing and eating too much these past few days.. pain eh.. lucky today got no OB traning.. like wanna die like that.. but I miss Ob so much.. nvr get to see my people.. training resumes in 4 weeks.. haiz..

this tuesday also is common test.. lucky first paper is MIC, everyone's most hated module.. then I'll have more time for my more important modules...

but i'm not looking forward to the first 2 days of attachment in 2 weeks.. Stef and Winnie both have ambassador camps and I'll be alone at Bright Vision.. confirm I'll be very lost.. haiyo.. not a good way to start my attachment.. hopefully i'll have a pleasant time..