well, shockingly, its been 2 days plus nenek passed away.. Amazing how time flies huh.

after everything has been done for her, meaning after she passed on, I start noticing people's behaviour on the day she passed away and the day after. Amazing how some people don't realize the fact someone has actually passed away and how others behave with respect to other factors.

Of course almost everyone who came were relatives of some sort. I may have said I was content with letting my other relatives see my nenek, you know, get to kiss her forehead n' all, and also her burial, which i hardly poked an eye at due to unknowns standing in front of me, but I was really frustrated with those relatives who are so-called 'far' connections. Firstly, my nenek, is NOT directly related to you. Second, Its MY house, technically my dad's, but mine all the same. 80% of those who came didnt know whose house it was.. lol..

I shoved some lady - discreetly - who pushed me to get a clearer view of nenek. She practically climbed over some people. Aiyo... Macam nak kena sepak. Anyhoos, I'll log that away. No point pondering about such trivial matters.

Some other, more serious matters, I would say, were the issues on stuff like Tahlil 'sessions' and my nenek's stuff.

Its amazing how some so-called 'religious' people in my family have very very werid beliefs. I naturally would follow my parent's beliefs, but lets not forget I went to Madrasah at adult level too okay. Not meaning to brag, but I know ALOT of stuff. And never in my entire life, have I heard, that you have to put nice smelling stuff and burn stuff over a deceased's bed, because the roh (spirit) will come back at night.

And i really wanted to say.. "Roh tengah di soal. Mane ade time nak balik rumah?"
(spirit is being questioned. where got time to go home?)

Haiz... people ah....

And why, OH why, don't people get that my parents are tired and are emotionally drained.. I can safely say my dad and mom cried the least that day.. but their lack of apparent sadness was replaced by major stress.. I really think my parents havent been treated fairly these pass few days.. and my dad, even longer... I hope people will realize their being very evil right now..

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went to Nani's(my other late grandma) house just now.. met Mamu Mumtaz there.. HAd a funny, albeit serious discussion about funerals and such. we were discussing this kenduri and all, and how it was 100% uneccessary.. he made us laugh so much with his comments which were very logical.. all this sessions, won't happen if it wasnt for food, FOOOOOD... a serious discussions would have left me screaming.. but it was Mamu Muntaz.. you HAVE to laugh..

I hope i have shed some light now on funeral matters and such..