Friday, April 20, 2007
Big announcement
If I don't appear at school this coming week, I'm probably dead.
From high BP
Which started at around 1230pm today, the 20th
Started unneccessarily.
Something someone like ME should have not been affected by.
Self-induced, but accidental.
I don't get HBP for no proper reason.
I'm a physically fit and well-reasoned boy, and should not get HBP.
I could swear I felt it it 180 or 200.
Really felt like my arteries and veins would burst.
My whole chest hurts.
SOMEBODY GIVE ME PROPANALOL NOW!!
God.
It hurt so bad, I couldnt even concentrate during Friday prayers.
Its time I punish my brain for having semi-wild imaginations
If they were true or not true, I would be fine.
But if I imagine something "BAD" that is probable, but I'm not sure, I absolutely despise it.
Oh mann. I feel gay right now, complaining.
And its doing nothing to stop the pain.
Thank GOD for CCA just now, or I wouldnt have had a distraction.
But now, back at home, the pain returns.
I shall spend the whole night doing
zikir if I have to!
Besides, if I am able to do it calmly and properly,
insyAllah, I may even find a solution to my problem rather tha just be able to whisk it away.
Oh well.
Time to get some food down me.
I need something calming.
p.s. If i looked like I was pissed or just not in the mood to socialize today, it was probably because of the above. Apologies to anyone affected, which is not that many people really.
Labels: time to berzikir.. =)
will YOU be my escape?
10:39:00 pm
