The topic of a few conversations I've had lately.



If I ever marry a foreigner,
and bring her back home,
I'll be laughing at all you local girls.

Why would I be laughing you may ask.
Because people like me, who are not good enough here,
WILL w/ a 100% Chop
land someone a hundred times more good looking
and who most likely has a heart
thats also a hundred times better. =)

I had a post on this similar topic a few months back.
But I just can't stop thinking about it now.
Well, under the current circumstances,
why wouldn't I?

Cheerio.

The following are two versions of one of my favourite songs.








An the acoustic version, which I like alot better when I'm in a feeeeling peh mood..

Its good to have people like Zee and Joel around in attachments so that we can just plain talk.
Our report writing session just nw was all talk.

And it's great to have mahathir around when there's no one else needing his attention.
Race is a fun game...

Anyway.
Had a discussion with Zee about a certain group of people being hypocritical, and the fact that NOTHING will deter them from this behaviour, purely due to human nature.
It also means that people like me lose out or just plain LOSE. =(

I realize that I actually am afraid/nervous/hesitant of some things.
Relatively minor things really.

I hesitate to SMS someone because I'm afraid they might not be interested or complain with examples such as their prepaid being low.

I'm afraid to bring up slightly more personal matters with many people cause I feel that they're not interested in being close to someone like me and may think I'm a busybody.

AND, I shall always be nervous around someone I like because there's ALWAYS some external
factor that inteferes. =@

Next up.
Pictures from Ward 45AB

For once, I dare say I look fat-TER.
Which is a bloody good thing.

Labels: Everybody wants to know her nameeee

I categorise my dreams into 3 different kinds.

Active Daydreaming
Passive Daydreaming
Night Dreams



Mostly I use active daydreams to make me forget about certain issues that I'm stressing or am saddened over (non-academic of course) by portraying certain events or scenarios. I usually think of World War 3. When I'm away from my friends,( be it the true or superficial friends) fighting in some foregin land, I don't have to think about them,and instead I am totally with myself. This immediately removes the problem at hand.

A good example would be if I'm really thinking of someone *winks* that I really shouldnt be thinking of, I imagine myself leaving her and others an ending up finding some foreign woman that I rescued or stumbled upon.

I know all of this sounds very VERY lame, but everyone has thier own coping and/or adaptive mechanisms.

As for passive daydreams. I get this when I listen to music with my earphones in for a long period of time. These usually involve unrealistic and exaggerated thoughts. In the recent past, things like me being an actual musician, a Man Utd player and climbing Everest have been involved. Understandable yeah?

Lastly, night dreams.
I basically follow the "dreams never ever come true" routine.
However, I have this thing called tape-recorded dreaming.
I made the name up of course.

Frequently, I have dream which are recurrent, all relatively unpleasant, and more seldomly, dreams which stop one night and continues where it ended the previous night, making it into a sort of a movie. My most common reaction to waking up fro a dream has always been a sarcastic snigger. In words, I would have said, " Yeah right", "If only", and "For the love of God"

So yeah, my relationship with dreams is really a love-hate thing. Useful sometimes, unwanted at others.

A few days ago, I actively daydreamed this particular scene.
Usually, I move on to think of something else.
However, this particular thought strikes me as a good, shall we say, gauge of something.
I will put this daydream to effect when the time is right, which is quite soon really. =)

Things I should say or ask myself more often.

• Give up
• Don't bother
• What on Earth were you thinking?
• Duuuuuude.......
• Stop doing that

That pretty much sums it up.

As for attachments.
IMH is a blast.
I reluctantly signed off at 3.20pm and wanted to stay longer.
Hanging in the dorms during nap time after lunch was the best.

Observing the patient who thinks he's a WWII veteran.
The relatively mute guy who patrols the ward and reports back to the nurses on patient's activities.
The guy who thinks the sky is telling him strange things.
The one who loves playing cards, thought he has no idea what he's playing.
And not too mention the vulgar ones.

And for the highlight of the day, I was sitting in a chair with casters.
A Patient comes up from behind me and wheels me from one end of the ward to the other and back again.

and so I was browsing wikipedia.
and found this.

Firstly you have the following hospitals in Singapore:

Changi General Hospital
Singapore General Hospital
National University Hospital
Tan Tock Seng Hospital
Alexandra Hospital

and you name the new one coming up Khoo Teck Puat Hospital

What on Earth is going on here?

Thanks to dear Mr/Ms Hate Tagger, my ego just got boosted by 100%.
Thank you very much.
I appreciate it. really =)

Alritey.
Yesterday was a day comitted to the boys in the east.

Went to Tampines Gym with Khai & Haziq.
And I saw another Khai, our former MrPresident.
He's enlisting next week. *salutes*

The gym is outrageously spacious.
But the school gym is better.
Had a bloody good workout.
I thought I'd be asking Khai for advice or tips, cause if you've seen him, he's taller and bigger than me.
But it was the other way round.
Shan't go into too many details.

Anyhoo, gym 1-3.
Street Soccer 3-630!

Played with the same group as last week, only this time at the Florist instead of The Cage.
The boys were from TJC or MJC.
Bloody brilliant players all of em.
I have to say, playing with them is far better than playing in school.
No offence intended to anyone.
Just that they're a more fun bunch.

I took special care of my shoes this time.
And for that, I got rewarded with four goals.
All good ones, except the one lucky one. =)
My team won 8 games in a row, with some games lasting merely 2 minutes, due to the speed we played at.
And throught the whole 8 games, only Arief and I tahan-ed all of 'em.
I'd say the best line-up we had was him, me, Faiz, Taufiq and Fahmi (i think that was his name)

Anyway.
Injuries sustained for the day.
A bruised back due to some good defending on my part
Painful groin: Self explanatory
Teeny-Cuts to my left toes after being stamped on.

Injuries I gave to others.
I broke a guys glasses - they were frameless ones.
I banged myself into this dude who then proceeded to bang against the metal railing and crashed down in a mangled heap on the floor

p.s - I didn't apologize for that cause everyone was going," Baik ah Mirza!" hahah. funny bunch of people I've made friends with.

Oh, and Saturday. I can't make it yeah.

Let's look at the two groups of people.
GIVERS and TAKERS

Givers are obviously people who are generous (either physically or emotionally)
Takers are people who stand by and accept stuff readily yeah?

However, if people spend their entire lives giving and giving, eventually people will assume they do not need anything in return, and do not earn at all. Being happy by giving and not receiving anything, does not last, no matter how sincere someone is at giving.

So, if a friend you know well, as a giver, feels lousy cause he/she feels that they dont get the proper recognition for thier deeds, never EVER question thier sincerity.

p.s - mostly its emotional needs. If I give you money I don't expect to be given money back.