I had a long, hard think - should I go for the long, explain-it-all post, or just keep it short and sweet?

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14th AGM has ended.
The full realization that I'm stepping down came full forward last night.

For the first time, in a LONG, LONG time, I cried.
Not crazily, just tearing mostly.

And you knw what?
I'm glad I did.
I feel good, well, better, about myself now.

And i kinda liked that thrill of all your emotions, sadness or joy or anger all coming out at once. It happened once the 14 Comm got into our little circle. Just the 12 of us, without anyone else to disturb.
I loved our chat and the 'FINAL BLOOD BROTHERS'.
In our true OB spirit, we did it in a humid place, windbreakers on. 14 reps per leg. Not a hint of sweat.

Had a hug around.
I've nvr hugged so many people at one time.
Haha. Really.
ELEVEN people.
I remember my first hug from a friend, was after the first hospital attachment, from Paula.

I said to myself," Oh, so that's what a hug feels like".
Last night: " THAT'S what a hug REALLY feels like"
LOL
Oh, and Wen Ting has my vote for most huggable of the 11. Haha.

Oh.
Random.
I think wearing the windbreaker made it easier to dry off the tears of the person who hugged you or you hugged.
Haha.

Its kinda cool, sitting down, and laughing and crying at the same time.
Funny too.
Like when me and Rachel were sitting somewhere and discussing some sad stuff, and teared even more, and I made a lame joke about how I must have drank too much orange cordial and she told me I should have gone to pee first.
Finding joy, in sadness.
Fun, fun.
Oh and wearing contacts kinda made me tear automatically, even after I 'stopped'.
LOL.

Kinda embarrassing - for someone like ME - to go back into Innospark and everyone going,"you crieeeed??"
Haha. Lame huh.

But oh well.
Like I said.
I feel better about myself.
Overall, the night was great.
It ended up the way we wanted it to be, full of emotion.

No one remembers any flaw in the program.
And who cares if someone hardly bothered to acknowledge another's prescence right? (emphasize on hardly, so its not did not bother all)
hahahaa.

With my 14 Comm and everyone else there, of course I'm happy.
[even though my parents grounded me]
hahah.



Oh.
I thought of making a whole list of stuff I would miss, but I saw that Ying Jia already did it. And since she's graduating, she has better reason to do it, so I shan't copy. =)

Also.
To the year3s. Hope you guys love the stuff you got. I especially liked the "diplomas" you all got. Even though I didn't have things to write about EVERYONE, just know that I still appreciate you guys cause each and everyone of you are great people, in alot of ways and everyone has been great to me.

As for those that I did write to, Ben & Ying Jia in particular, I had a tough time writing it down.
Cause there was so much to say and I didn't know which thoughts to put down.
But if I had to write down all the stuff, each of you would get a 3000 word essay (or more) LOL. To the guy that I look up most to, and to the girl who I enjoy imparting my 'skills' on. Thanks alot you two.

Oh, and I ALMOST forgot.

Ok no.
I remember very well.
The biggest of luck to Syafiq, our graduating zomg brother.
HAHAHHAHAH.
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Well oh well.
Looks like I went for the explain-it-all.
Its kinda messy huh?
Oh well.


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