THREE HOURS OF BATTLEFIELD 1942 WITH RUDY, ERIC, ZEE & MAHATHIR.

Crazy start to the week huh.



And I'm in a punching mood.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.




Ok.
Point of the day.
Ain't it cool, how, when people are in an 'unfamiliar' position,
they suddenly become lost and distracted and sutff like that.
An example would be, if someone enters a lecture theatre,
looks for ther friends, somehow can't find them,
then its as if they're in trouble.
Will people ever step out of this comfort zone?
I know some people who do, and some who're forced to do so.
But most of the time, it's just amusing,
seeing someone so lost because they have to sit alone for once.
=)

Random
The more selective you are of your friends, the less you tend to enjoy them.

And I kinda thought about something.

If you have alot of inclusion criteria - how your friends should be like - , then you're just pretentious, or snobbish, or just plain full of yourself.

If you have alot of exclusion criteria - what you DON'T want your friends to be like -, you're just afraid, defensive, and similarly, full of yourself.

Bottomline is.
Just enjoy people for who they are.
Keep your flawed opinions to yourself.
=)




And on another random note.
I caught this Year 1 nurse looking at me on the Train.
Looking. Not staring.
I'll leave it to your imaginations what other details I have left out.




And I'm listening to back-to-back Avril Lavigne songs now.
ZOMG.
Very original dude. HEH

Second week.
Feels much better, admist revelations and other stuff.
Woot.
I like my modules.
Today, for Nursing Management tutorial, the 'discussion' was about leadership.
Being a good follower, I decided to shut up and not say much, but for one word - collaborative.
Haha. Rubbish.

After school was spent alone in the library.
Watched Rock and Roll High School, which featured the Ramones in it.
Couldn't concentrate, so I editted random photos and played Fifa.
Met up with Hafiz at 4.
Ran THREE rounds around campus.
Great job man.
Woot.

And out of utter boredom, Me and Derrick decided to tag along to BPP after that for dinner.
I wasn't even thinking of the distance to home, from Bukit Panjang.
Just was looking forward to a nice dinner and chat, mostly with Jacq and Derrick.
Woooooooooo.
Fruitful convos, and so was the one with Derrick on 184.
And for the first time today, I came home not feeling dead exhausted, not having dryed contacts sticking to my eye, and not THINKING TOO MUCH.
Hah.
I feel OKAY. not great. but OKAY'S a START.

I think I might be going a bit nuts.

I've had an outrageoudly demure weekend.
No lecture from parents on anything.
Which is a record.
Usually they would find something to screw me over every week, just for fun.

Spent about hald the day on the laptop.
An a quarter eating (among other chores)

But here's the crazy moments.
Like, I ate milo cereal with ribena.

Like how my iTunes changed to Silverstein's Smile in Your Sleep, and somehow, the guitar is in my hands and i'm jumping on and off the sofa and around the living room pretending to be jamming to the song. Truth be told, I was really just letting out alot of leftover frustrations that I might have stored over the week that hadn't been released during Friday Training.

I was playing Fifa on World Class difficulty against Barcelona, and I fall asleep, woke up and the scores were still 0 - 0. Only a few people will understand why this might be crazy.

I turned off the TV at hafltime when Blackburn were playing United. I NEVER ever do that, even if United were losing.

I dreamnt everything was okay.
Never mind what everything is or was.
Just that, its a dumb kind of dream, cause it makes me smile in my sleep (oh, how coincidental), only to have it put out when my mum's voice echoes in the morning in my ear.




Okay.
Another sign I'm off my rocker.
That post just didn't make much sense.

And so today was first training.
It was rather well done.
Good job Clement and Shujuan. =)
And of course whoever else were helping.

I was high on Red Bull, so everything worked out fine for me during training.
And as usual, my camera was pissing me off especially when it was darker.
But got some good shots.

Kinda liked the drive home with Farand, his mom, Kha and Hafidz.
Was peaceful in a way.
And didnt allow me to think too much.
Which is a good thing.



Shall only post one photo, and its Ying Jia's photo, cause it's is my freakin' photo of the week. Haha.
An example of bad english.
In one sentence, I said the word 'photo' thrice.
It's on purpose by the way.
Otherwise, I wouldn't have brought it out.







any other shot I have and editted shall be on my photoblog..
Oh yes.
It's off hiatus already.
Do visit.
=)

Labels: First Training

HAHAHAHA.
Yet another medical drama?

I'm lagging behind.
And surprisngly, not in lessons.
Those I'm following better than usual.
I shouldnt be worried right?
But I am.
Hah.
It's only 2nd day of school man. *chill*
The number of people I've apoken to can be counted using my 10 fingers or less.
Weeee.



On another note.
180 people signed up for OB at our booth.
And to think I only got 3 of those to sign up.
But more importantly, that's a scary number.
Our current regular batch doesnt even run up to 50 (including newly graduated ones).

Oh.
Random
Yesterday.



Oh. and very random.
This is meant generally for those who believe in God.
If not everyone then just Muslims I guess.
Your choice.
Okay.
Let's say you don't like the weather.
You call it stupid.
Who controls the weather?
What, then, are you trying to say huh?
=)

Today was the slowest start I've ever had to school.
Monday blues doesnt even BEGIN to describe today.

Coming early to help set up the NPOB booth wasn't the least bit fun actually.
NS5 Lecture made me sleep.
Nursing Management tutorial was about the only real 'fun' I had.

And even after lessons, during my CCA Fiesta shift, which I spent, for the most part, poking Ying Jia, making fun of Ai Fang, and punching Derrick, I still was in a lousy slow-motion state. So home early for me.
Had a good nap on 154.
Which is rare.
Purposely took a longer route home while walking so I could repeat Yanni's "The Storm" over and over again in my ears. I could really use it for running. Heh.

Anyway.
I'm still in slow-mo.
I actually counted.
Took me 25 minutes to type this short post out, up to this point.
Head rolling about, just not falling asleep though.

And oh, a few people noticed my weight gain.
I was having trouble getting out of those size 28 Levi's before bathing.
Heh.
Post end.
28 minutes.

And so I start school again tomorrow.
As always, mixed feelings.

And as always, I can't help but wonder, why I always notice that virtually everyone has a new look; even the most minute piece of detail, you can see that difference.
And here I am thinking, "Hmm, why is it I still look the same?"
And its almost always a case of everyone improving or 'upgrading', be it in looks or stuff like that.

But then it hits me.
I change too.
Just nothing you can see just by looking.
Like, no one would know whether my fitness has improved, etc.

And now.
I don't really see the point of this post.
Then again, does there have to be a point?
I don't care. =)

Haha.
And yeah, naturally I realize I will only notice all these changes in my nursing buddies.
I've been seeing alot of my OB bunch over the vacation, a few more than the others of course. On that note, I think my standard answer for "how was your holidays?" will most likely involve the phrase, "It was nice. =)".

Bah.

I think no matter how much I change as a person, if there's one thing I know for sure would stay the same, is the fact that if I have to deal with anger and other emotions at the same time, anger takes precedence all the time.
This is obviously if there is anger involved in the first place, otherwise the above statement wouldn't make sense.

Today I've been in a rather mixed mood.
Not TOO sure why.
Maybe I know.
Perhaps not.

And I was in a semi-high-cum-moody state just now, so I demonstrated to some of the guys outside clubhouse, the "art" of dustbin punching.
I gave it about 10 knuckles and elbows, and naturally cut my knuckles a teensy bit.
Another 10 more to that spot would have made a nice round hole in the dustbin.
But then again, I'm not nto vandalism much.
Hah.
So the bin was spared.
Anyway, I felt that I'd diffused a fair bit of my feelings into that green bin.

But as always.
The inevitable long journey home.
Usually, I'd sleep.
Or just think.
Today, I was fuming.
At what.
I repeat.
I'm not very sure.
It was like I was looking for something to be mad at.
Even though I know that I didn't actually have to look.

Alas.
On my bed, now, the good side of things that happen DO eventually pass through this highly impermeable layer that is ME.

On another note.
This is a very common tune.
Its really a fill-in-the-blanks song.
Any word you want.
Any name you want.
Just put it in there and you can sing along.
That's what makes it so great - its simplicity.
Who or what would YOU put in those blanks?



You are my _________
My only ________
You make me happy,
when skies are grey.
You never know dear,
how much I love you,
please don't take my
________ away.

Spoiler Warning: This is one of those "how music shapes my life" posts.



Haha.
Yes.
So I've been working on sketching my living room eh.
And found that my dear friends the Arctic Monkeys are exceptionally useful in aiding my shading. The rhythm is perfect for my style.
Fast and long strokes.

Speaking of Strokes.
The Strokes.
Man do they just get me into my 'high' self.
My mind goes totally empty except for the instruments and vocals I hear.
And my creativity just soars as well.
Yeah.
Sounds contradicting huh, that my creativity increases when my mind goes blank.
But hey, I feel my way through.
And also, I kinda 'lose' myself in their music.

On another note.
INTERPOL.
No better band to get me going into my groove or zone.
It sets my focus.
The sparse guitars and thick bass lines.
Woooot.

And of course there are ther others.
The ones that diffuse my anger, the ones that make me smile, the ones that just make me feel like whipping out my guitar,
Stuff like that.


*sings*
tonight there'll be some love..


wooo.

and this is music.
woot

Long walk was nice.
Nevermind the butt cramp.

And leg still hurts.
My mum made fun of me by asking if I needed an X-ray.
Very funny.

And as always, going back with Rach produces ever interesting conversations.

Yesterday was a bit predictable.
Hah.
I don't really know what to think about now.
Blanked out

I'm rather exhausted today.
The craziness at Macdonalds last night was beyond belief.
Yes Shujuan, like you said, monkeys are hard to handle.
Especially you.
=)

Bowling.
Long walk.
New guitar strings.
Long queue at Spotlight.
Chat time.

Time well spent.