Monday, July 14, 2008
It suddenly occured to me - again - that NAPFA is in about a fortnight's time.
Truth be told, I'm rather nervous about it.
Afraid even.
I know MOST people would think I'm worrying about nothing.
Especially since I'm surrounded by people who don't see any importance
for it, mostly girls la, since they don't need it.
Perfectly understandable.
Funny, how alot of my friends are saying stuff like
"You no need to prepare already la"
"Go and die la Mirza, gold already"
I usually just smile at their comments and not say anything.
But it really gets to me.
Why are people like that?
It's like, once those kind of comments are said, I suddenly feel bad for
being what I am.
Lucky I have people like Ghaz, and maybe Rudy around. Haha
They seem to enjoy discussing running and stuff with me, and seem to find
my running somewhat amazing. Great fellas. =)
Back to the point of this post.
I'm afraid of the test, why?
Well I've never really told people, but usually, when I have so many people
riding on me for elevated expectations, I don't usually crack, in fact, never at all.
But it's mostly academic.
But when it comes to something like this, say, a simple 2.4km run, I can choke.
Badly.
No, not choke on food and cough kind of choke.
Choke as in perform below par.
I seem to have a history of performing poorly.
Back in secondary school during my track and field days, I was one of the fastest guys, and could hold my own against alot of people, but I somehow screwed up a few races
(which includes not finishing the race)
Kinda scary when you hear people expecting you to run 7 or 8 minutes.
I can do it, and I have done it.
But now I'm lucky if I can hit below 9-and-a-half.
My legs are killing me, and I've been having chest problems for weeks already.
Oh well, whatever.
I'll just ignore everyone else, and do my own thing.
will YOU be my escape?
8:53:00 am
